I guess i owe my readers a long explanation of where I have been, & What actually happened to me ever since the last time i wrote. I would like to, yet again express out my deepest apology for not updating often as i could. I can't really blame final exams, but let's just blame it to cover my other personal excuses.
well, today's 8 nov kan kan? so, a night left. then abang will be someone's husband. sigh. why am i so sensitive about this things ? why must i ?! this time, at this moment i have to sacrifice . this is for abang's sake juga kan. so why not ? hmm *tunduk pandang bawah.
ya Allah kenapa berat sangat hati ni nak terima hakikat ? kenapa susah sangat nak accept semua ni ? why ? i mean why is it hard for me while i know i cant do anything to change everything and start all over again. subhanAllah, negative sangat pemikiran ni. haih. esok je tinggal.. esok.. hmm. aku rasa tak boleh lah tngok abang akad nikah esok. mahunya banjir masjid wilayah tu...
ah malas dah nak express feeling lagi, meleleh merebeh kang. nuh ' uh ! will upate more, soon. nanyte !
