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22.2.14

well hey, i miss blogging ! its been sometime since my last post... hmm
seriously, i dont even have enuf time to surfing. 
ni pun curi curi masa before cont study.
lusa dah first exam.
deyy manade cuak seyy ! nak nak plak bnyk kluar chapter form 4. ingat aku ingat ke semua semua tu ? sejarah form 4 lagi lahhh ! lemah. baru baca 5 page, menguapnya dah 11 kali
and oh ya, as you guys know, my mom clipped my wings when she don't even allowed me to have a whats app, we chat, and oso twitter instag and all that lah. heyy.
life menda gini.. 
i bet you guys will never understand when your classmates made a class whatsapp group. and there's no me in it ! like WHAAAT ? homework ke apa apa semua dorang discuss dalam tu. yang aku ? kena delete wassep semua. mendaaaaa? aishh.

nuh ahh.. its okay, things will come out in the wash. inshaa Allah. i should count my blessings instead of being ungreatful kan ? subhanAllah..

okay sorry post harini macam tak de isi sangat.
just rindu nak blog.
bila x dpt nak blog , idea kemain mencurah
bila ada time, tk de benda comes to mind. ishh


31.1.14

hello 2014

nuh uh , holloo. i dont feel like telling you guys about my resolutions for 2014. well, it's too mainstream i guess? ngehe... so far, life is getting busier since i'v to face my very big exams which is SPM. lots of pressure, too much of homeworks and problems to handle. but alhamdulillah i can still stand on my own.

just so you know, teenagers would probably face the same problem as mine.
family, friends, money, freedomness... alahai semua semua tu lah

well .. idk to whom should i tell this out, but ya, its kill me inside.
yes i needa life too
yep i wanna be free sometimes
nuh uh. i hate being forced
nope i will do it by my own.
all i want everybody to do is just UNDERSTANDs ME .
understands my situation
please, im not a lil kid anymore
i know whut i should and shouldnt
seriously, i hate being conquered !
i get jealous with everyone who can make their own decision without any halangan.
hmmm

17.12.13

dedication to haters

halu eveghybody ? how are you ? i hope u are well healthy , i am as well so thank you if u did asked *hihi .
so the title already said it of , this post is dedication to the haters.

dear haters, i just wanna say ... you know i'v been thinking bout this quite sometimes lah sebenarnya .. i tought, i just couldnt handle it, i mean... keep it any longers.
so haters, thank you very much. i mean, from my early posts, where all these peoples like 'hentam-ing' me from left, right and not to forget from my back ! which is, 'backstabb' . HAHA *troll face
and ermm.. this comment is very harsh comment. and actually all of it are good for me, and i just wanna thanked you because at the time when i started making a blog and had my own social networks such as twitter, fb and all that, i just started wearing hijab. so, my knowledge in islam is not exactly alot, ya know i was.. kinda ignorant ... i tought i new it all, but i didnt act. and.. from your harshed comment, from your very the honest oppinion, i'v learnt to know that i did not really represent a good muslim. and  i wanna say sorry for that, but at the same time i wanna say thank you for pointing that out for me . because not many people would do that, kan ? like, no one would call me out of the blue like... 'yaw bitch, your hijab is not long mayn. dont you feel stupid wearing hijab but not covering your chest? and wearing baju ketat ketat??'

so you can do is just give me a message, instead of dm me on twitter, pm me on fb . eventhough they are harsh, but i'll take it positively. and ermm, if it not from you all, my scarf wont be longer. not that exactly longer but ya, im trying. im trying to be a good muslimah. trying to cover my aurat and try to make my clothes and trousers a lil bit loose. i wouldnt have that urge to learnt more about islam.. and i would probably stay the way i used to be. and then samaaa je tak nak improve diri sendiri, which is totally wrong. and what you guys did , were just amaizing. its just what i needed at the time. i cannot remain the way who i was. i cannot remain like not knowing. I HAVE TO KNOW ! so, good job. i mean keep it up !

BUT IT WOULD BE BETTER IF you guys just give me a presonal advices instead of, making war in my ask.fm or talking bad about me to others. this is why i filtered my ask fm and i stopped anonymous comments on my askfm. okay, i hope you guys didnt misunderstand . its not because i cant handle em. it is because i want you guys come straight to me. oraite ?
sometimes you guys have that valid point, yes you do. i just have to break down all my ego and just grab what u guys really wanna say and look it at the bright sight, in shaaAllah i will. because its true, most of the time kan? it just that the way you guys trying to tell me yang kurang beradab, mungkin?

im not saying that i dah pandai gila skrng. no im not. even half way there, im still crawling and i still have a lot to learn in a long journey. so i hope you guys out there (esp to my haters) grow together with me to be a better muslim and mature enough in 'memberi teguran' and not doing the same mistake ...

'paku pulang paku serpih, cakap orang dia yang lebih'
so bila dah tegur org, kita jangan buat benda yg kita dah tegur tu or even worse, yep? lets together we change :)