all about me today.

i don't mind being single..
but I gotta admit, it does get lonely, sometimes. Sure, it’s a lot less to deal with, I can do things without getting in trouble, I’m my own person but I have those moments where I miss being cared about, I miss meaning something to someone, I miss having someone to talk to day  night, I miss having someone making me feel like I’m important, I miss having someone to run to when I’m feeling terrible. It would be nice to matter to someone, again.

everyone knows i'm a horrible texter..

There’s some times I’ll reply back to messages in seconds, depends on who you are I guess. But most of the time I’m the type of person to read the text, tell myself I’ll reply in a bit, and end up forgetting about it until hours later. By then it’s probably already too late to even bother replying.

I love to reread old messages from you,
because they make me smile. It reminds me of the happiness and joy that you and I shared every minute we talked. It reminded me of how happy I was when I talked to you. It reminded me of how we always used to talk. But, at the same time, I get sad because I know it won’t happen again…

and dat's you 
what did i ever do wrong ? i never hurt you. i never leid to you. i never broke my promises like you did. i never stopped trying to make you happy . but most importantly, i never gave up on you. yet, you gave up so easily on me. you left me hanging there like i deserve to be let go without an explanation. even then, i never stopped thinking of you. i just decided to stop showing it.

i'm having those nights,
where you just sit there and wonder about everything that ever happened. the good and the bad . you're having flash backs about the people that meant so much to you. youu wonder about the things they've ever said and done. it feels so good, and hurts so bad all at once